Sofa King We Tod Ed

Somtimes the house is too quiet and I get frightened. Scared to be alone with the thoughts in my head. Wanting you yet pushing you away at the same time. Scared to lose you, scared to lose everything, but wanting to quit and take my ball and go home..I don't even have a home anymore. I feel banished. Don't know if I will ever be okay again..don't know the person I am becoming. Angry that I have to work on Thanksgiving--but not having any family to spend it with anyhow..Sad and self pity.