Sofa King We Tod Ed

I go thru jobs like underwear
I thought it was only people I did that to
My situation has not changed and I know I can no longer trust her
she is self centered, selfish and doesn't care about anyone but herself,
not even her child (so you see its not me I am talking about).

He threw something today and it scared me
I dont like making him react that way, but it was good to see him do that
I know the potential for him to get actually angry at me is there,
pushing buttons...I am good at that
and it is something I enjoy

I am sick...wanting him to grab me and kiss me viciously
smack me in the face and wrap his hands around my throat
punishing me. All this fucking guilt....make it stop.

Need to let go of it all and walk away.