Friday, October 15, 2004
They say it's irrepairable, this damage. Oh well... I have to deal with it dont I?
Changing jobs... AGAIN. I think this is the one tho'.. finally. I laugh as I write that knowing full well I am so full of shit. I have been full of it for a long time and I think I am finally coming to the self realization that its not going to change anytime soon. I think we are all pretentious and egotistical.. so fucking wrapped up in our lives that we fail to see what is really happening. It is our generation. So, I get up every morning... have a cup of leftover coffee, smoke a cigarette and go take a shower. routine. I dont have any other things I do in order everyday.. well.. I light a smoke on the way to work at the same place everyday. And I listen to the same songs when I feel happy.. and shit.. it's the same everyday. Who am I kidding? Do we have to become creatures of habit? Or do we just subconsiously fall into it..because it's comfortable? Fuck comfortable... I don't want to just live... everyday the same... I want to LIVE!!! take my days off and have an adventure. so, for 5 days a week, I do the same shit, but boy! WATCH OUT! I am gonna cut loose come my days off....ooo boy! what a fucking joke. No, come my days off.. I will clean the house, do laundry and pay bills; have a dental appt and see my shrink...why? becasue that is what I do...and I have fallen into what we all eventually do... predictablity. Didn't used to be like that... see what happens when you grow up?
Changing jobs... AGAIN. I think this is the one tho'.. finally. I laugh as I write that knowing full well I am so full of shit. I have been full of it for a long time and I think I am finally coming to the self realization that its not going to change anytime soon. I think we are all pretentious and egotistical.. so fucking wrapped up in our lives that we fail to see what is really happening. It is our generation. So, I get up every morning... have a cup of leftover coffee, smoke a cigarette and go take a shower. routine. I dont have any other things I do in order everyday.. well.. I light a smoke on the way to work at the same place everyday. And I listen to the same songs when I feel happy.. and shit.. it's the same everyday. Who am I kidding? Do we have to become creatures of habit? Or do we just subconsiously fall into it..because it's comfortable? Fuck comfortable... I don't want to just live... everyday the same... I want to LIVE!!! take my days off and have an adventure. so, for 5 days a week, I do the same shit, but boy! WATCH OUT! I am gonna cut loose come my days off....ooo boy! what a fucking joke. No, come my days off.. I will clean the house, do laundry and pay bills; have a dental appt and see my shrink...why? becasue that is what I do...and I have fallen into what we all eventually do... predictablity. Didn't used to be like that... see what happens when you grow up?
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